July 26, 2024Poem

First-day nerves.

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First-day nerves.

Words are sucked out

Of the air

Vacuum sealed

Mouths, if you please

Auditorium rules apply

First-day nerves

Langor sinks into a chair

An easy Sunday,

Leaning into Monday

Idleness bleeds into the cushion

Self-absorbed

Regardless of opinion

Oblivious to appearance

The stain on character

Anxiety chews at fingernails

The sharp edge of a seat bites back

Blood tastes good

Recognisable

Empires are won and lost

In the space between

Self-determination

And isolationism

Every sound deadened

In an echo of footfalls

A welter of pratfalls

Adolescent sweat

The smell of desperation

Locker room degradation

Detention cells are padded

For a reason

There is comfort in disquiet

It cocks its nose

In disgust

At the plight of wide-eyed

Rabbit-faced

New boys

Swilling their innards

Into the gutter

At the thought

Of freaking out.

Motherless egos

Rudderless children

Brass bells and assembly points

House rules make little sense

But there is compliance

Hierarchy

Is preferable to anarchy

There will be

Dormitory tears

Desktop fears

It was ever thus.

Bullies were made for

Lights out

And communal showers