Did I apply, did any of us

Did I apply, did any of us

Was there a choice

If there was would I have taken it on?

Probably not.

Would I be dead

If I hadn't

Or does that only happen once you have lived

Is it the same as nothing

Which can never exist

Or more like a stone

Without feeling

Real or imagined.

How would I know?

It seems a little heartless

To offer as much

Before giving so little

Snatching it away

In a heartbeat

Or stealing it before the next one begins.

Was there an interview process

With a set of questions

A panel of experts

A shortlist

What if I hadn’t made the cut.

Do you think there was an unconscious bias

Or a quota of a priori assumptions

Is that why I am

Self-evident

Living an existential crisis

As proof of life.

Will the return be met by a debrief

How will failure be measured

If there was never a hypothesis

To begin with.

Perhaps we are all just a working theory

A series of postulates,

Presuppositions

In search of a conclusion

Which may never be reached.