October 22, 2019Missive

He finds himself

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He finds himself

Counting interactions

How many words

Have been spoken in one day

Some without reply

Baristas and checkout operators

Seem to feature in the total

With far more regularity than most

Discounting family

There would be almost total silence

From one day to the next

Without talking to himself

He would soon forget

How to form a sentence

Construct meaningful phrases

Convey feeling, empathy

Holding someone’s interest

Has become a forgotten art

He was sure he once had the skill

To capture hearts with words

Of truth and depth

How did that change

With every passing day

Without the need to speak

More than a brief ‘hello’

He finds himself

Wondering what more he could say

Without scaring people off

Sounding deranged

Too needy by half

So much so he tells himself

That he has nothing

Of interest to contribute

He has done it all before

Seen the movie, read the book

He believes he has

Become a champion bore for higher values

As old guys

Are supposed to accept the advantage

Of ‘white male privilege’

Music didn’t change the world

Or if it did not for the better

The revolution

Became a corporation

People still like populist politics

Embrace nationalist ideals

Parochial concerns

And being told by some young thing

You are still ‘hip’ is a sore subject

When your neighbours all have arthritis

No wonder people die alone

It is too easy to stay home

When going out

To meet and greet the new elite

Is replete with

More than a hint of rejection

And a soupcon of embarrassment.