July 5, 2023Poem

When I walk alone

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When I walk alone

I carry new music,

The magic of Bluetooth

Keeps pace

Filling the space.

I remember how comforting it was

To walk, you and I

With genuine interest,

The wonder of discovery.

Nineteenth Century

Water stations

Built to resemble mediaeval castles.

Victorian bath houses

Alexandria Palace atop the hill

The first BBC television transmitter and all of that.

Back in those days

When your clothes were a good fit

Before you lost half of yourself

Conscious of them hanging loose

Pulling them tight

Holding on for dear life

When in the end

Everything slipped away,

Except for the memory

Of how amazing you looked

Wearing a red basque

Beneath your coat.

Playing footsie under the table

In a Bengali restaurant

In Stoke Newington

Watching the sunrise over London

From Parliament Hill

The smell of the all-night Bagel shop

On Ridley Road

Laughing with Robbie Coltrane

Before he was Hagrid

In many ways, he was bigger then

Than now

Gone but never will he be,

Not really.

The ruffle of sleepers

In shop doorways

The smell of sweat and desperation

The way of the English.

The rustle of rats

Running beneath empty stalls

Looking for scraps,

Where do they go when the market opens?

Less than thirty feet

Is what they say.

Stallholders shout and sway

Holding court

As if they were carpet baggers

Stealing the green of naive shoppers

Who wanted to believe

That cheap perfume really could be Chanel.

So many Kebab shops

Claiming to be the best in town

Lining both sides

Of Green Lanes.

It was a way to walk

But the nights were longer than

Or so it seemed.

Sitting on a bench

Overlooking the Grand Union

Smoking cigarettes

Giving them to strangers

Who were always short of a light.

Endless nights

Sunbright days

That never really were other than

In my imagination.

As the music moves within me

The rhythm of a walking blues

Keeps time with my beating heart

Each step takes me further away

The key to the highway

Brings me closer to home.

Picking up bread from the bakery

On the corner

Is only a short step away

From the beginning.